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By: Neghar On: November 22, 2019 In: Featured Posts Comments: 0

I’m a big fan of myself.

This doesn’t mean I’m conceited or self obsessed—it doesn’t impede my desire for self improvement or abstain me from fault or flaw. It just means that I’m not willing to let anyone else determine my value or challenge how I feel about myself. I’m in charge of my worthiness, period.

It means that *most* of the time I speak to myself kindly, and that at my core I believe I am worthy of love, success, connection, and belonging. I don’t make a habit of shit talking myself; instead, I aim to be my own damn hype woman.

But you know what? Sometimes I look in the mirror and I’m like GIRL YOU LOOKIN’ ROUGH. Sometimes my curls are frizzy and my eyes are puffy and my skin is an absolute mess. And sometimes I write or draw or create something and I’m like wooooooow that was trash. And LOTS of times I have shitty training sessions/fail a lift/suck at a CrossFit skill and I get annoyed with myself.

All of that is okay. I’m still my biggest fan, even and especially when I have those moments. Because I genuinely love, accept, and respect myself, I’m always working from that foundation—I can have sucky days and bouts with imposter syndrome and STILL know I’m 100% that bitch.

This is what it is to love yourself—to wield your own worthiness. It isn’t about feeling good all the time, rather knowing that even when you DON’T feel fly, you’re still that bitch, and no one can take that from you.

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